Thrill of a lifetime

There is a certain transcendence that gives such a calming feel...
It truly is rich beyond compare, and the gift of it is...immeasurable

I've wondered, what is the song in your heart, the one that goes unsung?
As the words, music, art, beauty or something else resonates within...
have you ever thought...why does that strike such a chord in me?

Some get killed by the questions without answers,
I find it more restful and appealing to let questions stay,
to live in some uncertain moments...
as long as I remember my life is in the hands of a Loving God! =)

As i reflected on Pastor L's sermon on waiting...
some other thoughts hit also...

There used to be a song that said...
All God's promises are Yes & Amen...
I'm not too sure what that truly means...
but i know that amidst our myriad questions,
God sometimes says wait, or He may seem to remain silent

And in my experience of it,
this kind of waiting is the most trying,
the most difficult, because we get anxious and fidgity
and it makes us question more, even question God himself

And when it does...it shows up more of what is within us,
more than than what is in God.
Behind our questions, we find our desires, wants, longings,
we find our insecurities, the lack of trust, our ugliness.

I love how George MacDonald explains it...

"Thy hand unloved its pleasure must restrain.

nor spoil both gift and child by lavishing it too soon"

And wow, what wisdom is contained in that...
The hand of Love, that wonderfully loving hand...
must, in some cases, be a hand that is firm, one that says "NO!"
because it is in exercising that restraint, that true Love is evidenced

The 2nd part of that is phrase is the telling part...
because if pleasure is unrestrained, it will spoil both gift and child
And wow, how like children we are to always fail to understand this
We are always clamouring for and wanting what we want...
ignorant to the fact that we may not know best,
that what we feel is good, will actually harm us...
and...Father really knows best...

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Today was a long day...spent in fruitful labour,
demanding, stretching, yet...fulfilling...
There are somedays that 24 hours feels insufficient,
but more so, because our souls find it hard to rest in God

I'm at rest now, happily drained...
feeling like i wanna express more of myself into words,
but finding no better words to utter anymore...
and maybe, even in this dilemma, I find...
God speaks through His Spirit...
and i realise that, even with words,
i could never express all that i wanted to...
it would just be a fleeting expression of the depth of all that is within
And i find myself content in the...non-expression of it...
because, ultimately, i'm glad that He understands even my voiceless groans
and in my soul, He knows, He simply...knows...=)

Loved...