"Fixed On Christ" (FOC!)
The metaphors, games, messages all held the theme of running this race with our eyes focussed, constantly fixed on the author & perfector of our faith!
It was a good camp for me...=) Entered camp with a little bit of fatigue because i realised that i've been living our of a suitcase for almost 2 months cuz of reservist, church camp, vietnam, student leaders retreat, then now...FOC. Woah...then got a pretty musty smelling room so had to vent it for almost a day, and even then it still had some funny smells!
Well...entering camp with fatigue wasn't a good thing, i had tasks to do, people to interact with, the freshies to welcome, what's more, during camp i started getting chills, that led to a fever and then a really rumbly tumbly stomach later! So...knowing i had limitations, i decided to pray and prioritise! Decided that i should be there for all the devotions & group interaction times, then i would film all the major interesting stuff, and then for the rest i would try to grab some rest and try to recharge up!
Turned out really well! Because i was able to scout out the places & get thorough briefings of the games, the filming was rather sharp, and targetted! No waste of time or resources! (I'm thankful!) Alot of times in camp, it is a whole mish mash of work, of DOING. Yet in this camp, i had a good reminder of needing to concentrate on the PEOPLE! So...along the way, the breakfast times & devotions were good! Sometimes, i was the only staff around, yet, i could tell that God put me there with an insight or perspective that was helpful and that made all the battling of the illness worth it!
Worship under the stars was great! =) And during the prayer time, i put down my duties, stopping all the tasks at hand and went to share life with some guys, just BEING there...it was a great time just lying down on the running track & listening to HW, being a listening ear and then...the time after with the new guys, hearing their fears, worries, expectations, yet Joy at being in NUS...all that reminded me that we're made to be human BEINGs, not human DOINGs.
So many times, we forget & allow work, the great many important things that we're doing, well...we look at all these things and think that they define us, when they really don't! Take them away & are you the same person as you are without the tasks? Strip them away, and who are you deep within?
I know that i'm a deeply introspective person, willing to think, examine, pray through situations...BUT sometimes i forget...and get caught up in the murkiness of things, yet most times...these times of deep thinking bring me deeper into a knowledge of who God is...what He means when He says He is...I AM, how a phrase like "Be thou my Vision" has layers of meaning that we have yet to even grasp, how do we plumb the depths of our hearts except by being willing to face the ugliness, the flaws, the things that we've hidden (even from ourselves!), it's only when we slow to take stock, to BE instead of DO, to just be still...that's when life takes on DEEPER meaning. And I would rather a DEEPER life with God, then a shallow one, any day...
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